Healing crisis...

Well, I suppose it's something we all go through at least once, eh? I don't know how in-depth I want to go (losing my voice for months this winter, chronic fatigue, extraordinarily low immunity...), but suffice to say, there are many things I'm grateful for in this time. One is simply living in such a holistically rich community, with many healers to turn to. Another is being born to the parents I have - both of whom encourage me to live connected with the earth, trusting my intuition, and guided by higher wisdom and the grace of the divine. And I am immensely grateful for the places I can turn for sanctuary - my little garden, sweet and gentle friends, la musica, these beautiful Boulder hills, the many kirtans and sacred singing circles, ceremony... I'm also grateful to be supported (by grace!) by my freelance works - web design, teaching voice, singing... - so that I don't have to hold a "normal" job. As impulsively driven as I am, it's hard to allow myself time (a day, a week, an hour) to rest and heal and do nothing - but it's what I need, and am grateful to have the opportunity.

I'm reluctant to go into what kinds of crises I'm going through, because at this point there are more questions than answers. For now, I am actively living the questions, inquiring by both looking inside to my intuition, and reaching outward for guidance when it feels right. I trust that I will come through, stronger than ever. I come from strong genes, and believe it's simply time for me to learn how to best honor them. Who am I, in this crazy body? How do I best tend to the garden of my being so that my flowers flourish?

The answers are in the living...